The Cry of my Heart

I just spent 4 1/2 days with some beautiful sisters and brothers in Christ. We were together to grow and heal and be prepared to help others do the same. I shared the following journal entry as we gathered on our final day together. Many told me that the words spoke their own feelings. Perhaps you will agree.

Father I love you, I lay my life before you. As the Son loves you, I too, cry Abba Father. I worship and adore you. I praise you. You alone are worthy. You alone deserve all honor and glory. My heart cries out for more of you. More of your love, more of your Spirit, more of your gifts. My flesh resists, my broken state and sinful nature fight to continue to satisfy their desires. Cleanse me from unrighteousness. Give me a pure heart. A heart that feels what you feel. A heart that desires what you desire. Use this broken vessel and pour out your love and healing to a sinful, broken, needy world. Teach me your ways, O Lord that I might walk in them. Reveal your presence in my life and your Holy Spirit's leading and power for ministry to others. Lead me to rely on you and your Spirit alone. Make me confident that you have been filling me with your Spirit, pouring in your wisdom and revelation. Without you, I am nothing yet you call me daughter, I am a daughter of the King - Holy and righteous because of Jesus' sacrifice on the cross.
Lord, I yield myself to you today. Empty me of self and fill me with your presence and your Spirit. Sanctify me. Heal inner parts. Remove sins and bondages. May I experience you like never before! I desire to be transformed - filled and equipped to serve you with all my heart, mind and soul. I desire spiritual gifts. Am I to prophesy? Am I to work miracles?, speak in tongues? I am yielded, open to your calling. I renounce any distractions, any way the enemy might try to come and curb what you desire to do in me. I invite only truth, love, mercy, compassion. I give you all that I can, all by your grace. Amen